Ugly

I just think the song Ugly by the Sugababes is just so meaningful. I mean it just speaks on so many levels!!! I just wanna dedicate this to the people who think they themselves are ugly just like I do to myself. I want to remind you that beauty is only skin deep.

When I was 7
They said I was strange
I noticed that my eyes and hair weren't the same
I asked my parents if I was OK
They said you're more beautiful
And that's the way they show that they wish
They had your smile
So my confidence was up for a while
I got real comfortable with my own style
I knew that they were only jealous cos

People are all the same
And we only get judged by what we do
Personality reflects name
And if I'm ugly then
So are you
So are you

There was a time when I felt like I cared
That I was shorter than everyone there
People made me feel like life was unfair
And I did things that made me ashamed
Cos I didn't know my body would change
I grew taller than them in more ways
But there will always be the one who will say
Something bad to make them feel great

People are all the same
And we only get judged by what we do
Personality reflects name
And if I'm ugly then
So are you
So are you

People are all the same
And we only get judged by what we do
Personality reflects name
And if I'm ugly then
So are you
So are you

Everybody talks bad about somebody
And never realises how it affects somebody
And you bet it won't be forgotten
Envy is the only thing it could be

Cos people are all the same
And we only get judged by what we do
Personality reflects name
And if I'm ugly then
So are you
So are you

People are all the same
And we only get judged by what we do
Personality reflects name
And if I'm ugly then
So are you
So are you

PS: I absolutely love the Sugababes!!!

A day in a life of a volunteer

On Wednesday and Thursday, I participated in the voluntary service programme at Adventist Hospital. Actually it was organised by Inti college. They offered, so I signed up!

Voluntary service is not as fun as I thought it would be. Well, it actually depends on which department you are sent to. On the first day, Jeremy and I got sent to the Emergency Room Division. Yup, we were the lucky ones which got picked! There were also two other volunteers there. Both of them I found out were from Chung Ling High. They had volunteered personally to gain experiance. Since they were the seniors, they got to tell us about their experiances and teach us a thing or two about what actually happens in the ER.
Well lets skip to the good part, instead of boring you about the way of tidying up a gurney. At about lunch time, an accident victim got admitted into the ER. He had a concussion on the head and there was this wound on his forehead which was bloody all over. Basically he was pretty scratched up. We watched as the doctors treated him and as he screamed and writhed in agony. Believe me, it was gruesome. There was also a woman who came in with blood on her upper arm. She had been bitten by a dog. Man! Those puncture holes were huge!
The second day was not at all fun. I was sent to the Marketing department and all I got to do for 4 hours was cancelling an error they have made in a form. there were hundreds of those forms.
The good side of volunteering: You feel great, free lunch, new experiances
The down side of volunteering: Being sent to boring departments, gaudy vests that must be worn while volunteering.

May, Jeremy and me wearing our gaudy vests

Yesterday, I went to Gurney Plaza. I don't know how many times I've been there this week. I think I went there nearly everyday! Anyways I went over to meet Karen and May just to hang out...our last time together as Karen is going away to study in Switzerland in a months time. We went around trying winter clothing:) I wish Malaysia had 4 seasons...

Then later on, I went for a movie with Zhi Xiang. 16 blocks is not a bad movie. However, the character that Mos Def was playing has such an irritating voice. Each time he talked I just wanna scratch his eyes out! But basically, its worth watching. According to me and Zhi Xiang anyway!

Talk about inapropriate!

Fashion: style, redundance, personality, facade, waste-of-time. However people see it, fashion is here to stay. From the catwalks of Paris, to the alleyways in the local bazaar. Everyone wears clothing and everyone buys clothing. Imagine what would a mall be without apparel outlets? Half the mall would be relatively empty!
Lately, I've been hearing news from my former high school about all the changes in the rules and regulations regarding the dress code. Just recently, they were trying to put a ban on those thick framed glasses. How are students going to see then? What a strict dress code! According to most of my friends, they point their finger to Mrs. B.W. (Initials used for safety here) Its quite true that she is behind all this and I can't blame the students for hating her. But just today as I was shopping in Gurney Mall, I spotted her. And of all the things she could have worn to a public place like a mall, she wore:

-she's the one on the left

Seriously!!! I mean she's already like what? 49 years old, and yet she dares to prance around in a mall dressed like she just emerged from a fish market. I mean, talk about INAPPROPRIATE!!

Should she not be the one who be true to her own dress code ruling? Should she not, as a teacher, set a good example? Should she not have pride in herself?

What a hipocrite!

Reality Check

The day today has been pretty much surreal to me. In the morning, and I mean way into the morning like around 12 to 1, I was just having coffee with a small gathering of friends and Ms.Girlie. Life was simple. Just chatting. Sipping Ice Blended Green Tea. Just absorbing what my friends are bitching about other people. Everything about that moment just seemed so normal. We wraped up our little outing at around 3 in the morning, Alvin dropped off everyone one by one and at last we pulled up by his house and I drove home in the torrential rain. Little did I know that in just a few hours, I would be experiancing an array of emotions.
It was 10.30am. I woke up, had breakfast and cleaned up. From then on, I dived head first into the 2 assignments which I had to hand in at 5pm the very same day! I worked and I worked my ass off. Barely able to cope with all the work which sapped me of my energy and brain power, a friend of mine, May came to the rescue and together we worked on the laborious conquests.
3pm. 3.30pm. 4pm. 4.30pm was when we finally finished and with 30 minutes to spare, we speeded off in my car towards INTI. And thank goodness, we were just in the nick of time.
Fast forward into the night. At 8.30pm, Jeffrey had picked us up (us as in me and Reuban) Our destination: Miss Ooi's wake. We met up there with former classmates and just paid our final respects to our mentor and friend. A person we learnt to hate and cherish, rebel and compromise. So many memories. Now gone.
The whole day just seemed so unusual. Within 24 hours, I had encountered so many feelings. At the end of the day, I'm left speechless. Unable to describe my feelings. I realize that sometimes, I really need to step back and view life from a different perspective. My life may end in just a blink of an eye and yet I dare speed on the road during a rainy day. Is there something fundamentally wrong with me...with people?
Days like these are a real wake up call for a reality check.

Situation Analysis

Life is a bitch. And that, my friend, is the analysis on my situation. Oh my god, so much has been going on and I feel myself just wasting away. My mid-terms are here and they are killing my slowly. Each question being a stab to my brain. Furthermore, just a few days earlier i found out about the demise of my former form 3 teacher, Miss Ooi. She will be dearly missed as my mentor and friend. May her soul rest in peace.
Lately i've been feeling left out. People are literarily passing me by. Friends are going shopping in KL without me, they are going to movies and group studies, whereas I, I'm sitting at home staring blankly at my Business Studies notes. How fun! Bite me.
But on the bright side, Ivan told me that Alvin only managed to purchase hideous clothes at typical has-been shops. Alvin if you do read this please just ignore what i'm saying, i'm a bit on the crazy side these days. Must be all the pressure.
Oh, another information i got recently is that Fujin and Chit Zhung are going to leave SXI and to pursue their studies in DISTED college. Reportedly, Kah Whai also wants to follow. There is just something wrong with those three people. They never socialize around (not that others know of) and they always stick together with EVERYTHING. And i mean everything. They ought to become a lesbian couple or triple or something. I mean come on!
I'm looking forward for this thursday when my last exam will commence and after that at 1.05p.m. sharp...FREEDOM BABY!!!! One whole week of holiday for hanging out and movieing and shipping and just plain fun. But of course that's when the form sixers have to return to school. Aww...big fat bummer. But anyhoo, at least its rest season.

PS: Happy Omen Day 06:06:06