Sometimes I find it difficult to talk in public. Especially when i'm infront of adults or people alot younger than me. I blame it on the age gap and differing interests but i'm pretty sure that is only a minor issue. I think it's because i'm a bit of an introvert. But i'm not that an introvert to the extent that I spend time with only myself in a corner, in the dark, staring at the wall and chanting while slowly rocking back and forth and cringing at the sight of sunlight and crowds (Okay fine, i'm abit irked when i'm in crowded places). Sure I do go out alone sometimes as a sort of 'me' time, but I definitely prefer to hang out with friends.
Yeah, back to conversations. I think if someone were to observe carefully everytime I meet someone new I tend not to talk very much. Maybe it's because I find the situation new and foreign. But once i've gotten accustomed to the person and warm up, so to speak, i'll be less mute and more out-spoken. The cursing and swearing comes a bit later :)
But I want to be more of an extrovert. I know i'm are born the way I am and all that but then, I can try to cultivate my personality. Change is possible as long as I want it bad enough to happen. Like for instance, I used to hate making presentations and speeches in class but I think i've gotten a bit more comfortable with myself that I can stand in front of my classmates and just talk. Unfortunately my hands still shake a bit everytime I do that...and my heartrate increases too.
I hope I can overcome these problems by being myself because I really don't think i've achieved that level of being comfortable in my own skin. And at the same time, I don't want to become THAT person who so overtly expresses himself that he becomes annoying or come-off as thick-skinned. Cheers to that!
Stay tuned for more.
6 comments:
yeah,
my 1st impressn of u would be a guy who is shy and quiet, but after a while.. aduhaii u're talkative,loud and my god funny! hahahahahahahahaha
Aww...thanks! Yeah I get that alot
I thought you were that kind of person who stays at home everyday! like the only time you go out is to college! And it turns out that you LOVE shopping! O.O
Wah, I didn't know I seemed so lifeless! LOL
You can always pretend to be an extrovert. Some ppl are introverts at heart but because they practice so hard at covering it up, no one can actually tell that they're an introvert!
The only difference is that at the end of the day, an introvert would feel completely drained after having talked to a lot of ppl and spent the whole day out with ppl but would feel replenished after having spent time by him or herself. An extrovert would be the complete opposite - completely energized when hanging out with ppl but drained when they are by themselves.
Which leaves the question: which one are you? Do you feel energized when you are out with ppl? Or do you feel completely tired at the end of the day?
Well, I guess that makes me more in the introvert department. I DO feel sapped after a whole day of going out, but then at the same time I feel euphoric. So although i'm tired, i'm happy. Maybe i'm just sitting on the fence.
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