I don't know how to describe my situation right now. It feels a little bit like a train wreck. A self-induced train wreck. Things which I wanted to prevent, happened. Things which I should have seen coming fell into my blind spot. It's like i'm watching myself being run over by a moving vehicle doing 140kmph on the LDP. Sure, I know I could have prevented it but I just keep letting it happen again and again. And what's worse is how it all happens in slow motion.
It's time I re-evaluate things. And try to get back on the right track. I sure could use a guiding hand and some form of boost that I've been seeking for a couple of weeks now ever since I came into the realization that I'm plunging deeper into an unending abyss of utter uselessness. A disappointment to all. A liability. A redundancy.
Am I missing out here? Was there a memo or some kind of how-to-live-a-better-life periodical/handout that I didn't get? Or did I just made a wrong turn and am now on my way to a very long detour? Because now I'm needing that memo and I'm looking for a large green sign to find my way back.
Stay tuned if you want.
3 comments:
Everything is gonna be alright.. Dont stress yourself too much k! =)
- House mode -
you poor sorry piece of shit.
- end of House mode-
make a list of things to do and achieve and if possible with the minimum requirements for them. I did. map it out over a weekly period like a timetable and attempt to stick to it. it's hard to be super nerdy n stuff but shopping is my reward.
never be negative. always be the alternative.
if you have a grey day, allow youself just one day to be sad, moody, grumpy, unresponsive and unproductive. i usually do smth 'reviving' like a facial if you get what i mean.
all in all, remember you are doing what you love, what you do best and see how far you've gotten yourself.
relax, have a banana, eat some ice cream and lastly and a choc bar and everything will be fine... :)
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